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ChillyDuck
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Country: United States
State: Pennsylvania
Metro: Lancaster
Gender: Female
Interests: God, music, people, hiking, biking, climbing on big rocks, singing, laughing, reading, people, musicals, Conestogans, bandgeeks, norswomen, PKs, MKs, getting hugs, giving hugs, and my new obsession is Ultimate Frisbee
Expertise: not really sure...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
Message: message me
Member Since:
11/22/2005
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| arg. so much to write, and it is too late to do so...i tend to write things that i shouldn't when im tired. what i really want to do is play piano, but i think my family would frown upon it this early in the morning. mehness
so i saw my ex boyfriend today. i went to Penn Manor's winter concert...that is all i will say about the concert...i am a music teacher in training, so i picked it apart the whole time. it went well...anyway back to the subject at hand. mind you i haven't talked to said young man for two years. i kind of almost fainted...few things make me speechless, and seeing him at a concert that he willingly went to did it. We waved to each other, and afterward he came and talked to me. i had the urge to turn and run. it was awkward. we talked about our lives and he told me his girl friend was in the choir. I found i was extremely happy for him. He told me that if i ever needed anything he would be there for me, and that he hopes i find someone special, and that he is sure i will. i told him thanks, and that i hope everything goes well with him. we talked a bit more and i kind of sped away to find my friend Ella.
why does it bother me? it shouldn't, but it does. I am happy for him, I am happy for me. He is a good man, but never was a good boyfriend. He still cares for me, and i still care for him. I don't hate him, and he finally forgave me. WHY AM I SO UPSET? because he has a girlfriend? nope, i am happy that he is happy. in fact im thankful for the experience, or else i wouldn't have gotten close to my friends now.
arg...weird mood...ok im gonna go...tired...talk to you all later, hopefully with good news next time...ok bye
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| Wow, friday night was amazing...from about six o clock on, i felt like a princess out of a fairy tale. right now, i don't feel so great, and everything in me wants to just be negative, so i think i will write about friday...
So Friday was our Harvest Banquet, which has taken the place of the winter formal. it was actually really cool. As always, I am still single, but that didn't matter because I had two of the most amazing dates ever-Shawn and Kelsey. Yes, I had two dates, no, I am not ashamed of myself...hehe...I don't even really feel bad that I had like five other girls who were very perturbed that my male date said yes to going with me and Kels...yes, for clarification purposes, I asked him...I was in a beautiful dress, feeling pretty, with my gorgeous and very handsome friends beside me, and I felt like the happiest girl in the whole world. Shawn waited Kels and I to get ready, and we kind of were late, but not really. We got there and talked to people, and took pictures, and we sat with the lovely Candy, Rach, and Steph, and Katrina, and their dates. Shawn got both Kel's and my chairs, and as Kels was sitting down, the centerpiece attacked her- Shawn insisted it was jealous of his two amazing dates and it was trying to kill her to get to him...hehehehe...silly tree...
The tables were set up family style, and we had thanksgiving type food. it was all lovely. Mr. and Doctor Gregory got up to talk, and the messages were very nice. Everyone went around the table and said one thing they were thankful for. It was a wonderful evening, and everyone looked very nice...i was sooo happy, and i didn't think the night could get better, then it did...kels and shawn and i went to the laundry room to take pictures (for some reason it became our official talking place, plus the light is great in there), and we took crazy pictures for about 15 minutes. it was so fun, and i absolutely love those too...any time that we can just hang out and talk and be silly is my favorite (though i miss my other trio...it just wasn't the same with out Katy there)...but anyhoo, we hung out then we went to get changed for bowling..
when we were all ready, we met up at the chapel, and fortunately the van broke down. I say fortunately because we got to ride with my new good friend Katrina, who is absolutely wonderful! she is so funny, and is goofy just like me...so anyway, we leave to go to the bowling alley, and went to the wrong one...and in leading the group back to leisure lanes, i almost got everyone lost...i missed two turns. i love lancaster though, because it seems you can get anywhere with any roads...you'd think i would know names of streets after living here all my life...anyhoo, it was just a fun ride over. Bowling with everyone was soooooo much fun...it was just the four of us at the lane we got put at, and i found out Shawn bowled a lot before...he beat the shoes off of the rest of us...it was all good though. I don't think we stopped laughing all night, and i got two strikes in the second game...both of which Kelsey didn't see...im not bitter or anything, am i lovey? hehe j/k...it was all good...i can't wait to upload pictures...it was just so wonderful. i don't remember having a night like that for a long time. i wish i could rewind back, and live through that night all again, just like it was. i was really happy and free from worry-all kinds of it...but wait it didn't end there...
so we rode back to school, and i found out more about Katrina-she is a local too, and she goes to church at my old highschool...eep that was just really cool. then she started talking about this character from a cartoon, and i mis heard something she said, so she insisted that i see this cartoon (Fosters home for imaginary friends-cheese, if you really want to know)...so when we got back, shawn left to have man time...hehe my name for his dorm get togethers, not his...and Katrina, Kels and i went back to Katrina's dorm and watched clips of this cartoon...mind you we were all sleep deprived, so we laughed at everything...the cartoon was rediculous, and is now one of my favorites...it was hilarious...especially at twelve thirty at night...hehe...then we took more pictures and said goodnight...kels and i went back to the dorm and crashed...hence the end of a perfect night
so yeah, that was my incredible friday night...there were more details, but it is late...i hope you enjoyed...i know i did...ok bye
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| so...its happening again...crap...
life would be so much easier if i didn't have to deal with reality...
i want out...
God help me because i am so weak right now...the only thing that can heal me is You...
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| so...i think i found my new addiction...
hehe...so after a hectic week, im gonna slack off, lean back, and escape reality for a few hours...
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